Reinventing Joy

It seems that everywhere I look, people are paired up as romantic couples moving off into the Love Sunset. I am so tired of people telling me to stop looking when there is no such thing. I mean let's be honest, you promise yourself to not look but you still dress appropriately, put on makeup, and put your best foot forward. You aren't actively looking but what if someone else is and you don't want to be the raggedy chic at the bar. You want to keep your "For Sale" sign on but it's just invisible. I am trying not to look but can't help but sigh sadly to myself when I see another status change or have to stand up for someone at a wedding. My wise dentist told me today that things that work don't need work. I am realizing that Harvey requires work. It has been 5 months and on 4th of July weekend I had to have "the get your act together because I am not feeling like you're into this relationship as much as I am" talk. It wasn't fun to hav...

I just overheard on the radio that Hugh Heffner and his most recent fiance have called off their engagement.  That man has been engaged a billion times.  And what a life for those girlfriends.  I used to catch a glimpse at the Girls Next Door and was amazed at the lifestyle and opulence these Bunnies had.  Perhaps I'm working the wrong angle.  Being a sugar daddy's bunny may be the lifestyle I need.  A cat that enjoys the company of young lady that has talents that he wants to support and spend time with.  It doesn't hurt that all that love comes with a mansion complete with a grotto full of parties with the rich and famous.  It's reported that both sides advised that it was a mutual break up.  He's 85 and she was 25.  Age isn't supposed to matter, right?  So it must have been his smoking jacket that he wore all day...right?! In other news, I lost 0.6 pounds this week and that was after a lot of Cancun-sun and fun.  It was a r...

That's all nough said! Kicked up the cardio.

Lost one lb. And worked out for 40 minutes and my ankle only "eeked" for a second (or about ten minutes). I know! I need to go easy but fat doesn't look good in the summer or on my trip to Cancun in 3 weeks! Still dating Harvey. Keeping options open and not putting all my eggs in one basket. Trying to log my foods daily on WW.com without feeling guilty. Going nuts, litterally eating raw nuts because I have no more bad foods in the house! I need to shop for food. Online food shopping is great. I shop in my pjs and pick the order up the next day at the curb of the store. I can even buy my wine online. Love technology! Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9

So I haven't been blogging much because writing about how I've been living in total denial since I've sprained my other ankle isnt really newsworthy. I would like to point out that after several set backs I was finally able to "get it" and stay off my ankle and in the prescribed boot for about three weeks now. I see the Ortho doctor today and he will either clear me of the boot or order several more weeks in it. Wearing one shoe, a dress or heels are virtually futile with this boot. Especially with the show Xanadu opening tonight! I am excited and hopeful my ankle will hold up tonight. I am getting a session of Physical Therapy (pt) in today too! The show runs a full month so I pray for the strength to pull through the rehearsals and run. I am not able to exercise the way I'd like due to my injury but I have been disciplined enough to track my food and water intake in my WW food log and try to move a lot while dancing to get some cardio in. I am maint...

I have now allowed my immobilty to thrust me into such an abyss of emotional eating that I am back at the weight I was when I first moved to SC. And to make matters worse, I am retaining water, have a date with Harvey on Saturday and just know he is going to wonder why I am wearing an Ugly Betty Guatamala poncho to dinner. I hate feeling so bloated and defeated! This darn sprain is not bouncing back as quickly as my left ankle did. I worry that I won't be in Play condition for opening night. My worry turns to grazing and self loathing. I got a clue mid week and decided to get back to basics even though I can't move around as much. I am logging my points, drinking at least 48oz or more of water and staying off my ankle as much as possible. I am tempted to do some quickie slim fasty thing but I think the starvation will only result in binging and feeling more sorry about myself. No way! I will resist and log and rest. I hope to hear that I am released from the boot! More to c...

It's been quite some time since my last blog. I am back to my starting weight.  I'm retaining water like the Hoover Dam because of medication.  Medication??!  Yeah...so...that new musical -Xanadu that I was cast in...I injured myself at dance rehearsal.  I landed my last move, the right ankle rolled in then out and then popped.  I thought it was a simple sprain Ala the January Icy Sidewalk incident.  NOPE!  According to the Orthopedic Doctor that I saw this past Friday, it's a bad sprain.  So bad- that he gave me "THE BOOT".  I have to wear this black, heavy cast like behemoth of a boot so that my ankle is stable and heals.  I had to beg the doctor to keep me in the play that opens 3 weeks from now.  My director is FREAKING out and so am I.  I am more concerned that I had been de-skated earlier that week because of my injury.  Not that I'm hurt and should be off the ankle to prevent future damage, mind you...but because I ...