Reinventing Joy

I've been silent for a while.  Blah Blah Blah! Where have you heard that before?!  When I am afraid to face the truths that creep into my overcrowded mind?  YUP!  It's like a broken record! Nothing has been going on.  For real! I was given my orders to be on vocal rest for 1.5 months and I've sucked royally at it.  I train courses all of the time at work which means talking nonstop.  I try to remember the forward resonance of my voice staying in my head instead of my chest but it's exhausting and quite honestly, I really would just like to have my voice back to normal.  I leave work each day praying that I will magically get onto a project that will allow me to be silent for a FULL day.  Not happening! Karaoke bars are my crack dens.  I pass them on my way home late at night and have this sudden urge to stop and sing a few rounds of "I Will Survive" and "Piano Man" just to get the whole crowd riled up.  But, I don't stop and...

I think it's time for me make time to take time. My boyfriend has hinted that we don't need to run around every waking hour of the weekend. I also want to make the most of my time with him because life is too short and I am up for two different job pursuing different passions of mine. One job is training in Irvine, CA and the other was a last minute invite to fill a PR mentor of mind's position in NJ. Both jobs would mean moving away from my haven in SC, new life, friends and my boyfriend. Then to add to the stress, my landlord just reduced the rate of the home I'm living in and the interest is picking up. I may have to move out without our previously agreed 2 months notice. My tenants are acting shady and were seen removing lots of bags from the home into a van but insisted that they were not breaking my 6 month lease extension. They have been paying rent late and oddly inverting the address on the envelope too. Are they trying to skip town too? My solace i...