Reinventing Joy

2012 had a lot of adventures! My challenging December has thrust me into the new year a few weeks early. I plan to make next year the year of new beginnings- a doorway into a new chapter in my life. My theme for next year: Changing The Scene in 2013! Things I did in 2012 Passed the PHR exam!!! Went to Rock N Roll Fantasy Camp at the Playboy Mansion and met my idol Steven Tyler. Rocked out with legends and was validated as a great vocalist. Made new friends and reconnected with old ones Went to my first 2-Day Jazz Fest in FL Did my first Shakespeare play "Much Ado About Nothing" with a new theatre company Went Skydiving Flew to LA and auditioned for the Voice in person Went to my 1st Springsteen Concert in Chicago Took a chance with my heart, briefly explored cohabitation and ultimately stood up for my happiness and didn't try to change someone I really cared about. Moved to a new townhouse Interviewed for a job I didn't think I had the chops f

I'll make this brief. I didn't get a really awesome promotion the same week I realized that my relationship with GI Joe had run its course and ended it. To cap off this magnificent week, I had two weeks to find a place to live, pack and move out. I'm not there yet to see the sunshine. Being cursed with a nickname like Joy, I just can't have more than one bad day at least in the eyes of my Manager at work. I am running on emotional fumes. I am hollow. I am tapped out and I've given all that I have to give. Being around large groups isn't fun and this is a huge sign to me that I'm not there. I'm trying not to eat my feelings because I've lost 12 lbs so far and am on my way to losing my final 10 lbs. I just don't want to get out of bed bit I have to in order to pack and give extra stuff to Goodwill. I still have a few items to donate to the kidney foundation pick up. I know logically that it will get better but I wish people would allow m